Feeling left out o' the loop....
Nov. 24th, 2013 03:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
red_satin_doll Am I the ONLY person in this corner of LJ fandom who DIDN'T watch the Doctor Who 50th Anniversary special? (Apparently my "inner Willow I hate to
be left out Rosenberg" has come out topla pout. Which gives me pause....)
Aaaaaaannnnnnddddd in other non-whiny new o' my life, my sweetie ordered a new computer today. Last we she bought me new twin bed to replace the one that got crispy-fried in August. First pillow-top mattress I've had! Plus new sheet and down comforter. I felt a wee bit self-conscious about it as "her bed" because like most things in our home, she purchased it. (She has a job, I'm unemployed.). But she called it mine.
Sometimes I am reminded all over again why I love her and what's kept us together for nigh on 17 years. I suspect our relationship mightn't look functional to any one else, and it sure as hell doesn't fit any neat ideals in the self-help books. But it works in it's own strange way - we get by. At the end of the day all we have is everything we are.
(And at the end of the day, maybe that's why I love Buffy&Spike in all their screwed-up, messy, sometimes tender, sometimes terrible glory? It's something I can recognize, feel, understand. The rest of the world be damned.)
be left out Rosenberg" has come out to
Aaaaaaannnnnnddddd in other non-whiny new o' my life, my sweetie ordered a new computer today. Last we she bought me new twin bed to replace the one that got crispy-fried in August. First pillow-top mattress I've had! Plus new sheet and down comforter. I felt a wee bit self-conscious about it as "her bed" because like most things in our home, she purchased it. (She has a job, I'm unemployed.). But she called it mine.
Sometimes I am reminded all over again why I love her and what's kept us together for nigh on 17 years. I suspect our relationship mightn't look functional to any one else, and it sure as hell doesn't fit any neat ideals in the self-help books. But it works in it's own strange way - we get by. At the end of the day all we have is everything we are.
(And at the end of the day, maybe that's why I love Buffy&Spike in all their screwed-up, messy, sometimes tender, sometimes terrible glory? It's something I can recognize, feel, understand. The rest of the world be damned.)
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Date: 2013-12-03 08:59 pm (UTC)Oh dear. May I ask why? (I have no feelings about the new who because I haven't seen any of it.)
<i>As long as you're happy, it must mean that it works</i>
I was talking about this same point with <user site="livejournal.com" user="clockwork_hart1"> (Lucy) downthread so I'll link to that:
http://red-satin-doll.livejournal.com/27614.html?thread=660190#t660190
Because I was surprised that more than one person said what you did, that as long as I was "happy", and I didn't think I'd meant to convey "happiness". Many times I'm NOT happy, and that's one of the biggest issues for me that I wrestle with on a day-to-day basis.
I think Lucy hit the nail on the head: "functional and happy aren't the same, but as long as it feels... worth something, then something has to be right." Maybe that's what I was getting at? there are things in this relationship that work, and things that don't - happiness seems to be quite beside the point.
BTW - your Touched Icon is LOVE. I want to cuddle up inside of it.