I enjoyed school until I was 9, and then one girl managed to make my life "Hell" ... she isolated me, made worse by my own faith which kept me from being allowed to d some things ... but because of that, she used this as the perfect excuse that I was not to be allowed friends. Hard to realise then how clever she was - and although mum & dad went to the school, much was put down to "teenager" life.

But it has left me with a feeling of needing to be isolated ... I know I run away first so I can't be thrown out of the group ... Like Marcie in season 1, I want to be invisible, as I was when I was at school.

College helped as I had a good group of friends, but casual contact is still impossible.

No, I shall be going by myself, but fandom of James has "made" me do things I always was either told not to do (artwork, cos of my colourblindness, and writing, because of my poor English language skills ... and that was teachers!!). I have been to his "days" he has done in London, but they are more structured ... but I'm going ... and hope I remember to breathe while I'm there!

Yes, some of Buffy's problem were, like me, she believed what others told her ... and seeing Giles' respect for her final decision was lovely to see.

Oh yes, I love antiques - my trip to London will also be to museums, again .... I wish some of the exhibits could talk to me. And, as for my house ...it's a good thing I'm single, as there is so much here I don't have room for another person's things!!