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red_satin_doll ([personal profile] red_satin_doll) wrote2014-07-10 01:00 am

STOP THE PRESSES HOLD THE PHONE AND THE HORSES - I AM CRYING HAPPY TEARS BECAUSE...


1) One of my dear friends gave me a paid account through 2016. (2016, y'all!) AND...

2) A second dear friend here in this fandom offered to extend my paid account and was ready to do so, AND...

3) Another beloved friend would if they could, AND....


I am really just stunned by the love and generosity of my friends here, I hardly know what to say except "THANK YOU." Thank you, thank you - and there WILL be polls, I swear! I will take advantage of that feature! (And I don't have to give up any of my userpics! *flings confetti*)

 When I first got into this fandom a couple of years ago I wished that I was "part of the crowd", or  that I'd been in fandom "back in the day" thinking I'd missed something. No. I'm right where I need to be when I need to be.  It's not about being part of a "clique", it's about clicking with people because we like and respect and love one another. I'm really not sure how I've been lucky enough to find so many wonderful friends here - who are as "real" to me as any so-called "real life friends"; you ARE my friends, full stop.) But I'm ever so grateful to have found my way here.

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I wish I could pay this forward to someone else and feel mortified that I'm unable to now. Especially for two of my lovely homegirls [livejournal.com profile] kikimay (who has a basic account and would like a paid account) and [livejournal.com profile] clockwork_hart1 (whose gift account will be expiring very soon.) Since I can't do myself, perhaps someone else can?

BTW [livejournal.com profile] clockwork_hart1 casually mentioned that she wanted to write a meta about the Gift/Chosen and why she prefers Chosen as the ending to Buffy's story - and then posted it today, "The Hardest Thing in this World is to Live in It.". She's passionate and articulate and right-on; and I just want to pump my fist in the air and shout "YES!" As she said to me one time "I don't want Buffy's legacy to be the hole she leaves in the ground." This meta also goes into why female martyrdom as a plot device is deeply problemmatic. Go read it.

I AM ALSO CRYING BECAUSE....

4) I finally read [livejournal.com profile] velvetwhip's fic "Soft and Pink and So Very Sad" and it's one of the loveliest things I've ever read. Mr Gordo, post-The Gift. Gabrielle rec'd it to me as one of her own favorites and I'm glad she did. She should be proud of it, it's a heartbreaker. Grief and confusion, the ways our identity is tied up in someone else, but also powerlessness - it's a theme that the show often touches upon but Gabrielle's story takes it to the limit. This is how absolute helplessness feels, in the person of a stuffed pink pig.
So ok, maybe not such happy tears with that one but more it feels good to cry, knowhatimean? (Euclid approves as well - he thinks she got Mr Gordon's voice exactly right. He's quite particular about such things.)

It makes an oddly appropriate thematic pairing with [livejournal.com profile] beer_good_foamy's S6 fic "Building Character" . Yes, it does. Read them both, then think about it a moment...I'll wait...See what I mean?

[identity profile] velvetwhip.livejournal.com 2014-07-10 05:23 am (UTC)(link)
Yay!!!! I am so thrilled you are all paid up for years to come!!!!! You are such a lovely person and it doesn't surprise me at all that your friends pitched in.

I've been in this fandom for about a decade and a half and I can tell you that while it's changed and it's smaller, I still think it's wonderful and that's in large part due to new and splendiferous people like you finding and joining it.

As for your rec of Soft and Pink and Very Sad... now *I* am the one who's crying. Thank you for saying such lovely things about my story! *sniffles* It means so much to me that it touched you. Hug Euclid for me... and add a hug for yourself. You're uber terrific and that's a fact. I am glad beyond the power of tongue to tell that you are my friend.



Gabrielle

[identity profile] beer-good-foamy.livejournal.com 2014-07-10 08:11 am (UTC)(link)
"Soft and Pink..." is so very good. But then I was always a sucker for Mr Gordo fic - one of the very first fics that got me hooked on fanfic was Meltha's "Last Will And Testament", which still gets to me.

[identity profile] snogged.livejournal.com 2014-07-10 11:58 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so glad that you had friends that rallied around you and supported you. I'm excited to have you continue your role in fandom and look forward to more gleeful posts like this one. :)

[livejournal.com profile] velvetwhip's story is gorgeous and angsty and wonderful. It's amazing how much feeling she can instill in a little stuffed pig.

:)
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[identity profile] teragramm.livejournal.com 2014-07-10 12:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so glad someone gifted you with additional paid time! You were so happy to get that original paid time and I was sad it was expiring because you were sad. I just have to say, you have some lovely friends. ~_^

[identity profile] quirkytizzy.livejournal.com 2014-07-10 01:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I love it when friends are able to do this for each other. And it's important for us to remember that we really do care for each other. *HUGS AND HAPPY THINGS* This was a beautiful post to read!
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[personal profile] debris4spike 2014-07-10 01:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I am so happy, like others I had wished I could afford it, but having had to cut my hours it's hard (as a single) to pay bills. But am bouncing here that someone has done that.

You wanted to be part of fandom, to me you have given my fandom a new bounce ... so, thank you very much.

That is an amazing conclusion - that Buffy's legacy was that hole in the ground. Sadly so true in much of those final 2 seasons.

Wednesday, July 9

[identity profile] livejournal.livejournal.com 2014-07-10 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
User [livejournal.com profile] rahirah referenced to your post from Wednesday, July 9 (http://su-herald.livejournal.com/733465.html) saying: [...] [Short Fiction] Fic and meta recs [...]

[identity profile] clockwork-hart1.livejournal.com 2014-07-10 04:28 pm (UTC)(link)
YOU STILL PIMP ME TOO MUCH (and thank you, bless you, i love you)

I need to read Gabrielle story right now. Right now. I love her and her wonderfulness. She is a shining star in the fandom.

Also, OMG congratulations on the account! People are wonderful, aren't they? But I'm fine with a basic account, honestly. I didn't know what to do with the paid one when I got it - though the pic space was pretty. Kiki though? I'd love her to get a wonderful gift like this. She's awesome and deserves it.
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[identity profile] rbfvid.livejournal.com 2014-07-10 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Glad to see that you don't have to commit that horrible userpicticide anymore) And huge thanks for the recs!

[identity profile] slaymesoftly.livejournal.com 2014-07-10 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
So, yay for having your future on LJ secured for the next few years. The Gift vs Chosen meta was quite good an interesting. So true that the Buffy who survived the Hellmouth seems much more ready for a future than the one who saw no way out but to die.

There needs to be more Mr. Gordo fic. Funny or sad, it's always fun to read. This one was amazing.

[personal profile] kikimay 2014-07-11 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks for thinking about me! (I don't know how put gifs into replies but just picture a big hug here) Plus beautiful large atwork with Tara, Willow and Dawn. I adore The Real Me.