"Welcome to the Hellmouth" / "Bring on The Night"

[red_satin_doll]

"You're standing at the mouth of Hell. And it's about to open up." *

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"I'm beyond tired. I'm beyond scared.
I'm standing on the mouth of Hell and it's going to swallow me whole. And it'll choke on me." **

* Joss Whedon
** Marti Noxon & Douglas Petrie

Comments

[red-satin-doll.livejournal.com]

Thanks for stopping by, hon!

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BTW -did you WANT me to call you "sick and depraved"? because I'll do anything once - within reason. ;)

[red-satin-doll.livejournal.com]

No worries hon, but thank you for saying that! I wanted to make sure I let you know before I went to bed so you wouldn't be worrying about it. I'm actually not easily turned off by conversations or by the TV show (unlike fic, which is another story) and there's very little on the show I can't handle. I couldn't watch it otherwise. (My Ted meta, which I think you're referring to, wasn't triggered by the episode itself, but by fandom discussions about it.)

Your comments actually got me really thinking (which is of the good) because it wasn't triggery, just uncomfortable for reasons I couldn't pin down, even though you were very clear that you were talking about fantasy NOT reality. And I certainly have fantasies that I would never act out - that's what fantasy is about! And then I enjoy things with my partner that I don't enjoy reading about in fic, etc. I can handle watching things on the TV show that I don't enjoy reading about and would never condone in RL. (Smashed for instance) Desire, what turns us on and off is not simple - there's layers to it.

So you got me thinking lots of thinky-thoughts. I realized I also fetishize Buffy's pain, emotionally and physically - check out my icon. But I'm not sexually turned on by it (although I think she's cute as the proverbial button.) I think it's like listening to blues music - I feel better via someone else's suffering. And then her eyes, and expressions - it's hard to explain I have to think about it.

I also realized that a lot of people go on about Spike's "sexy wounds" in Intervention - and I don't swing that way so, whatever. But if people find Spike's wounds sexy, why not Buffy's? It's the same thing. Which means that, if that makes you sick and depraved, then a hell of a lot of fandom is sick and depraved. Maybe we all are in our own way - we just have different boundary lines!