Ah, but you're aware you're not taking them and why; as a friend of mine once said "we have to be ready, willing AND able "- all three must exist for change to be possible.

That sort of awareness, and knowing that you're not ready for something, is wisdom. You're taking care of your needs today so you'll be able to weather the long road. That's not weakness that's strength.

Strength does not mean "an absence of fear"; quite the contrary. You're already stronger than you know.