he saw the "evil" of rebellion, and the order of calm ... and chose to go with that,
Especially after his own period of rebellion as "Ripper" - which I think was a fantastic addition to his backstory in season 2, but made his failure re: Buffy, Willow and Faith that much more egregious IMO.
And I do understand being bullied! Oh goodness, do I ever - from kindergarden onward it was nonstop in school. NONSTOP. I walked into school a very excited, outgoing little girl who loved to read and learn, and slowly turned inward. It wasn't until I was in 11th grade that after years of "turning the other cheek" as my mother had taught me, I turned around instead, faced a boy who had been harrassing me and dared him to fight me right off the bus. He got embarrassed and mumbled "no" and walked away with his head down. It was very empowering.
But my tendency to hide and withdraw has not gone away, I still tend to be very private, don't like parties or crowds unless I'm "putting on an act"! If I have a presentation to do, something to sell, to cook, to show someone around, I can "play the part". Sit me on the bus in the city or at a party with no "role to play" and I clam up again.
HOWEVER, I have treated myself to the expensive ticket, and am dreading the after show bit, as I know that the people there will overwhelm me. However, maybe for James I can fight through the 35+ years of pain.
Good for you! You deserve the treat! And I have faith that you can do it - it will be overwhelming but that's ok. Remember why you are there and what you want for yourself. And have fun!
Are you going alone or do you have a friend or buddy going with you?
Yes, Buffy is like fine crystal ... beautiful, serving a great purpose in this world ... yet can get dirty, or broken. And, sadly, we all like the perfect crystal ... not the scratched and cracked one.
It's like the old saying "Snips and snails and puppy dog tails, that's what little boys are made of. Sugar and spice and everything nice, that's what little girls are made of." Boys have been give permission to roughhouse, to get dirty, to make mistakes that girls haven't been. Girls are supposed to be nice and neat and supportive and get it right every time. (And how else do we learn but by making mistakes?)
Buffy's a mix of the two, like all of us are, and she has to negotiate between the snails and the sugar under countless pairs of scrutinizing eyes. She's crystal, yes, but also steel; some people only see the steel, some only recognize the crystal, and so she is endlessly underestimated, until she begins to underestimate herself.
But then I love antiques, old china, old buildings, etc because they are worn and flawed - flaws have stories to tell!
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Especially after his own period of rebellion as "Ripper" - which I think was a fantastic addition to his backstory in season 2, but made his failure re: Buffy, Willow and Faith that much more egregious IMO.
And I do understand being bullied! Oh goodness, do I ever - from kindergarden onward it was nonstop in school. NONSTOP. I walked into school a very excited, outgoing little girl who loved to read and learn, and slowly turned inward. It wasn't until I was in 11th grade that after years of "turning the other cheek" as my mother had taught me, I turned around instead, faced a boy who had been harrassing me and dared him to fight me right off the bus. He got embarrassed and mumbled "no" and walked away with his head down. It was very empowering.
But my tendency to hide and withdraw has not gone away, I still tend to be very private, don't like parties or crowds unless I'm "putting on an act"! If I have a presentation to do, something to sell, to cook, to show someone around, I can "play the part". Sit me on the bus in the city or at a party with no "role to play" and I clam up again.
HOWEVER, I have treated myself to the expensive ticket, and am dreading the after show bit, as I know that the people there will overwhelm me. However, maybe for James I can fight through the 35+ years of pain.
Good for you! You deserve the treat! And I have faith that you can do it - it will be overwhelming but that's ok. Remember why you are there and what you want for yourself. And have fun!
Are you going alone or do you have a friend or buddy going with you?
Yes, Buffy is like fine crystal ... beautiful, serving a great purpose in this world ... yet can get dirty, or broken. And, sadly, we all like the perfect crystal ... not the scratched and cracked one.
It's like the old saying "Snips and snails and puppy dog tails, that's what little boys are made of. Sugar and spice and everything nice, that's what little girls are made of." Boys have been give permission to roughhouse, to get dirty, to make mistakes that girls haven't been. Girls are supposed to be nice and neat and supportive and get it right every time. (And how else do we learn but by making mistakes?)
Buffy's a mix of the two, like all of us are, and she has to negotiate between the snails and the sugar under countless pairs of scrutinizing eyes. She's crystal, yes, but also steel; some people only see the steel, some only recognize the crystal, and so she is endlessly underestimated, until she begins to underestimate herself.
But then I love antiques, old china, old buildings, etc because they are worn and flawed - flaws have stories to tell!