OMG, thank you sweetie, on all counts! I'm really surprised at the reaction to the icons (and all of it really.) I guess feeling safe enough thanks to my friends here like you just makes a huge difference.

Suicide sucks.

I can still only imagine what my mom went through. I haven't had the courage to broach that particular part of the subject.

I think what makes is "suck harder" is the shame and secrecy that we have around it.